Deferred Again

I’d rather not have seen the glimmer

than have it extinguished again

The light its glow is growing dimmer

Am I supposed to find it again

Half full, I cry, half full

I’ll pretend it’s okay again

I wish it was more than half full

Positive thoughts sprout hope again

I’d rather not have dreamt the dream

Than have my heart crushed again

Why can’t I just spoil the gleam

Promise gives way to tears again